Tuesday, January 10, 2012
accidents
Man, keyboards are totally made for two hands, not just one. Can't believe my knife slipped and I cut my finger...hope it isn't deeper than I think.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
mcat
God, please remind me why I am studying for this difficult, 5.5 hour test that will play such a big role in my medical school applications. Please grant me Your supernatural strength and focus and diligence, that I would not give into temptations and distractions in the next three weeks. The first couple of weeks, I was able to read through so much material, but now that it comes to more active studying, I feel my resolve faltering. Please help me. Help me to glorify You even as I study, study, study. I can't do this without You.
no compromises.
No more compromises with darkness.
That's one of the things I took away from onething (which I will blog about...later!). And yet it is just so easy to fall back into sin, perhaps when I'm least expecting it (or maybe because I just don't want to expect it). Praise God for convicting me (again...) of the need to be careful, to keep my feet from swerving to the left or right, from the path He is setting before me. (It's no accident that I've been reading Proverbs 6 and 7 these past couple of days.)
Argh. It's a daily need for Jesus to save me from myself...to be disciplined in the Lord and not be complacent >.< whether it's purity, MCAT studying, or loving those who make it really hard to do so.
Jesus, I don't want to keep disobeying You. Help me to look to You, so that all lesser things and earthly desires fade away, and my will is aligned with Your will.
That's one of the things I took away from onething (which I will blog about...later!). And yet it is just so easy to fall back into sin, perhaps when I'm least expecting it (or maybe because I just don't want to expect it). Praise God for convicting me (again...) of the need to be careful, to keep my feet from swerving to the left or right, from the path He is setting before me. (It's no accident that I've been reading Proverbs 6 and 7 these past couple of days.)
Argh. It's a daily need for Jesus to save me from myself...to be disciplined in the Lord and not be complacent >.< whether it's purity, MCAT studying, or loving those who make it really hard to do so.
Jesus, I don't want to keep disobeying You. Help me to look to You, so that all lesser things and earthly desires fade away, and my will is aligned with Your will.
overjoyed.
What does it mean to be overjoyed, to truly be filled with the joy of the Lord so that it overflows and is apparent in a way that will lead others to glorify God?
I remember sometime in November, when I was just on the Internet in my room with my door open, and only one of my other roommates was in the apartment. She was talking on the phone, and all of a sudden, when she hung up, she ran to my doorway and started jumping up and down and screaming, "I got into UT Law! I got into UT Law!" Actually, she was screaming so quickly that I couldn't understand her for a few seconds. I gave her a smile and a hug, and then she proceeded to run around outside, screaming with joy (I could hear her from inside my room). I've never seen her (or anyone, perhaps) that happy. She started calling her family and close friends and screaming the good news to them over phone airwaves.
It was pretty hard to not be in a good mood afterwards. I was really happy for her! It just made me think, though...if she can be so happy over something so earthly/fleshly, over someone telling her that she was good enough to get into a school, how much more should we be overjoyed about the joy of our salvation, the truth of the gospel, and desire to share the good news with others? Man, pretty convicting.
Let the redeemed of the Lord say so! Amen.
I remember sometime in November, when I was just on the Internet in my room with my door open, and only one of my other roommates was in the apartment. She was talking on the phone, and all of a sudden, when she hung up, she ran to my doorway and started jumping up and down and screaming, "I got into UT Law! I got into UT Law!" Actually, she was screaming so quickly that I couldn't understand her for a few seconds. I gave her a smile and a hug, and then she proceeded to run around outside, screaming with joy (I could hear her from inside my room). I've never seen her (or anyone, perhaps) that happy. She started calling her family and close friends and screaming the good news to them over phone airwaves.
It was pretty hard to not be in a good mood afterwards. I was really happy for her! It just made me think, though...if she can be so happy over something so earthly/fleshly, over someone telling her that she was good enough to get into a school, how much more should we be overjoyed about the joy of our salvation, the truth of the gospel, and desire to share the good news with others? Man, pretty convicting.
Let the redeemed of the Lord say so! Amen.
lessons from yoga.
So I took yoga as a 1-hour class this past semester, and it was pretty fun, considering it was my first exposure/experience with yoga, ever. I realized how flexible and inflexible I can be, and the most intense thing I got to do was an elbow stand and a backbend (!). Pretty crazy. Anyway, sometimes our teacher would say things that struck me immediately in terms of how they apply to my spiritual walk. I don't think he's a Christian, but who knows? God still spoke to me through him:
1. do vs. be--Yoga is not just about doing poses, but also about just simply "be"-ing. He would have this corny joke: "If all you do is 'do' poses, then you'll just be a pile of 'doo-doo', so you need a combination of 'do' and 'be', so you can have a nice 'doo-be-doo-be-doo'."
Sounds silly, but it's so true. Especially in my time with Jesus...it's not just about doing. There's so much joy in just sitting at His feet and being with Him. As a type-A, logistics-loving, plan-making person, I need to constantly remind myself not to be a Martha (Luke 10:38-42).
"Like an apple tree among the trees of the forest is my beloved among the young men.
With great delight, I sat in his shadow, and his fruit is sweet to my taste. "
-Song of Solomon 2:3
2. consistency--Yoga, according to our teacher, is all about consistency. You can start small--5 minutes a day, for example--but just because you do 30 minutes one day, it doesn't mean you can skip the next few days. You still have to do 5 minutes the next day.
Ahh, so true. This really struck my heart because I've had so many struggles in the past with consistency in my daily quiet times, and it's so easy for me to get myself down when I miss one day, then two, then three. Such a comfort to know that Jesus is always waiting there for me with open arms, and He longs to just spend time with me. What else can captivate my heart like that?
3. criticism--In our class, our teacher would sometimes call out the mistakes of one certain guy in the front, and he would get frustrated easily. But, our teacher reminded us, his criticisms of that one guy would benefit the whole class because we could all see what he was doing wrong and correct the mistake in ourselves (since we were probably making the same ones).
Just a reminder to not despise the Lord's discipline, for He disciplines those whom He loves, like a father who disciplines his child for his own good! (Proverbs 3:11-12)
Guess I got to learn more than just how to stretch :)
1. do vs. be--Yoga is not just about doing poses, but also about just simply "be"-ing. He would have this corny joke: "If all you do is 'do' poses, then you'll just be a pile of 'doo-doo', so you need a combination of 'do' and 'be', so you can have a nice 'doo-be-doo-be-doo'."
Sounds silly, but it's so true. Especially in my time with Jesus...it's not just about doing. There's so much joy in just sitting at His feet and being with Him. As a type-A, logistics-loving, plan-making person, I need to constantly remind myself not to be a Martha (Luke 10:38-42).
"Like an apple tree among the trees of the forest is my beloved among the young men.
With great delight, I sat in his shadow, and his fruit is sweet to my taste. "
-Song of Solomon 2:3
2. consistency--Yoga, according to our teacher, is all about consistency. You can start small--5 minutes a day, for example--but just because you do 30 minutes one day, it doesn't mean you can skip the next few days. You still have to do 5 minutes the next day.
Ahh, so true. This really struck my heart because I've had so many struggles in the past with consistency in my daily quiet times, and it's so easy for me to get myself down when I miss one day, then two, then three. Such a comfort to know that Jesus is always waiting there for me with open arms, and He longs to just spend time with me. What else can captivate my heart like that?
3. criticism--In our class, our teacher would sometimes call out the mistakes of one certain guy in the front, and he would get frustrated easily. But, our teacher reminded us, his criticisms of that one guy would benefit the whole class because we could all see what he was doing wrong and correct the mistake in ourselves (since we were probably making the same ones).
Just a reminder to not despise the Lord's discipline, for He disciplines those whom He loves, like a father who disciplines his child for his own good! (Proverbs 3:11-12)
Guess I got to learn more than just how to stretch :)
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
prayer request
So frustrating to see a friend struggle because events and people in her past have told her that she is worthless, un-lovable, a doormat. She just really needs Jesus to shine the truth of His love into her life...it's painful to see her selfless to a point where it's self-destructive, not because she wants to show love to others, but because she is living under obligation to serve everyone around her, except herself. Jesus, please help her. Speak true life into her spirit, please.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
twenty twelve.
...I can't believe it's already 2012!
So, so so so so so much in my heart and mind from onething 2011. But there is one thing (among many) for sure--I'm so glad God brought me there this year (praise Him for His sovereignty!).
Pray for me as I process through it all with the gentle guidance of the Holy Spirit tomorrow!
So, so so so so so much in my heart and mind from onething 2011. But there is one thing (among many) for sure--I'm so glad God brought me there this year (praise Him for His sovereignty!).
Pray for me as I process through it all with the gentle guidance of the Holy Spirit tomorrow!
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